The crazy things I think about

So the other night I finally turn on the heat in the rest of the house (previously, only Mary's room had the heat on). We have units in every room attached to the walls. They provide AC in the summer and heat in the winter. Of course the remotes are in Japanese, but my neighbor told me what symbol to look for and that was the heat. So far so good in Mary's room. I turned on the heat everywhere else and I'm in bed reading. I'm so stinking tired, so I decide to call it a night. It's only 9:18pm! Being a single parent wears me out. I close my eyes, the heater kicks on and I hear the motor rambling. Suddenly I start to worry about carbon monoxide. Do we have problems with that here? You hear about people dying in their sleep every winter from some faulty heater. I wonder, who will find me? How will anyone know I'm dead? Apparently Mary's room is fine, so she'll probably be screaming her head off. Will anyone find us? Am I really sleepy or is it carbon monoxide? Needless to say, I'm ok. But this is why it took me so long to go to sleep the other night. Then last night, I was talking with a neighbor that happens to be a civil engineer on base and told him my worries. Long story short, no carbon monoxide. So last night, I lay in bed trying to go to sleep and all I could think about was the crazy thoughts from the night before. Sometimes it's exhausting to be me.